Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Babies, babies, babies

It was an honest to goodness sleepless morning around here. The larger of our two dogs decided to howl once at 5:20am, and it managed to wake me up. I let her in, and her first order of business was to jump on our bed and get as close to our necks with her cold nose as she could. I don't know if she's trying to cuddle, or get close to an artery, just in case she feels like going for the kill. I never feel completely sure.

Anyway, I was up!

I've been lounging in the quiet family room, rewatching "Regarding Henry" for the 100th time. I even had a little ice cream -- if nobody's up to see it, then it didn't really happen, right? (The kids are up now, so quiet is out the window.)

Normally I'd be on the road to work right now, but this morning I have a doctor's appointment, so I get to lounge and take my time. I'll be seeing my midwife, and plan to mention the baby dilemma we've been having. 'Do we or don't we have a third,' is the question of the year. My hubby is older than me, and I'm approaching 33 faster than I'd like, so it's pretty much now or never. I always wanted more than two, but there are so many factors involved this time around. I'm working full time to support us, and I'd have to go back to work and leave the baby home with the baby daddy. Can I/he/we handle that? And the whole expressing of milk at the office -- I hated that entire experience. Knowing I'd have to do it five days a week is enough to make me want to tie my own tubes! Not to mention...two kids is nice. It's easy. Everything's even. They each have their own room. Everyone uses the bathroom and dresses themselves. I really don't have any complaints.

Oh, except for one. I really want to have another baby! I loved almost everything about being pregnant, and I really do pregnancy well. Giving birth is incredible, and the first year really is my favorite year. Yes, you're tired, but everything is so amazing with a newborn. And I know we'd never be sorry. Maybe a little poorer, but never sorry.

Any thoughts from those of you with more than two kids? What is great and what is harder about more than two? I'd happily hear some feedback.


Ali said...

I have 2 also and definitely understand that pull towards having another. I was holding my newborn niece the other day and thought, yeah I could do this again! We keep going back and forth but I think we're keeping it at 2.

Anonymous said...

I go through that often, except I had a tubal. The other week I was late and was thinking it would be exciting if I was one of the small percentages that had an oops. But then I also feel that working full time is hard enough with two kids. Your age isn't that bad though...I had B at 38. I do wishe I'd done it younger though. Oh well...whatever decision you make will be the one that's right for you and your family...good luck!

The Mom Jen said...

I also thought 2 was grand...one of each, they got to 6.5 and 4 and life was good, easy, but I guess too easy, life had a more challenging plan for me...in walks #3.

I can't imagine our lives without K. She is a total blend of DQ and My Boy and she just really completes our family.

Just my 2 cents.

ShellyH said...

I can remember those days/mornings well. Although our daughter is going to be 23 now, I am caring for my 82 and 85 yr old aunt and uncle so I am learning to do all of this all over again.

Candid Carrie said...

I have birth kids that are 26 and 19, and adopted kids that are 13, 11, 7, 5. My eggs would have been too old for me to conceive those last two. I love the full house and revolving door of kids and friends, but I have never worked this hard in my entire life!