Tuesday, January 20, 2009

A Funk. A Rut.

There are so many different ways to say how I'm feeling.

Down. Blue. Punk. I think those are my favorite.

It can't be helped! I had the most amazing time at my scrapbook retreat, never wanting it to end, and worked so hard (with so little sleep) that I came home thinking I was coming down with something. Then I had to take my best friend back to the airport, say goodbye for who knows how long, and come home to a family with little or no sympathy for my feelings. I crawled into bed yesterday and barely showed my face again. I would have stayed there today, but of course I don't have a say in when I want to go to work -- I just have to go.

So far I've managed to avoid anything having to do with today's events in DC. I'm struggling with the idea that I should support my president. But how can I when I think he's going to make our country even worse than it already is? And don't even get me started on how much I hate all of the race talk. Yes, we elected a black president -- it was bound to happen, and I think it's great. But can we stop acting like this now finally means we aren't a racist country?? That somehow we were an awful and bigoted people before last November? I'm sick of hearing comments like that -- as if I had something to apologize for if he hadn't won.

I guess we'll see what the next four years brings. Personally, I'm just worried about some friends we have that, because they work hard to make two incomes, will have to give up their side consulting business and have more taxes taken out just so they can avoid losing their house when the new taxes kick in for them. They're super excited about the new "change."

I'll keep working on crawling out of this funk. While I'm very sad that it's another year before our next event, I'll try to cheer up by not wasting any time in starting to plan the next one. At the very least, I've got to work out some details while everything is still fresh in my mind, and that should perk me up.

Tomorrow I'll blog about the weekend -- pictures and all!


Ranch Girl said...

I'm sorry you're in a funk. I always have a hard time coming back from these things. I dealt with it by working most of the day, and now I'm off to a meeting tonight! I guess I just need to put one foot in front of the other. Besides, Gayle is coming to visit me in just 16 days!

Mere said...

I totally understand that feeling and have a SUPER hard time getting out of it, too. Eventually it will happen though, and when it does, you'll be thrilled! I'd start planning too!

Love, Mere

Melissa Good Taste said...

I agree with everything you just said! Every time I saw anything to do with the inaguration, I changed the channel or closed the web page. America wanted "change" and I am afraid we are going to get it in a bad way. Lets buckle our seat belts and see where the 4 years take us! Hang in there sis!

Dawn said...

Merrie, sweet Merrie, I have the same problem when I get back from anywhere that includes an overnight without kids or responsibilities. I am just plain cranky, hostile, and not in a very good mood.

Don't get me started on Obama. Um, no...

Now, I don't know what you need to do to get out of this rut; but the only thing that comes to mind is to pray. Ask God to give you a good mood instead of a bad 'tude... hahaha Who knows if it works, but it's worth a shot, huh?

Getting ready for my retreat and realized that we are $300 in the hole. (the number of women attending is not going to be enough to cover all expenses) Yeah, don't tell my husband. It's not gonna be pretty. :)

Rebekah said...

Sorry you're in a funk. I know what you mean. Obama getting elected hasn't changed the minds of people prior to this. They will still feel the same as before.

Racism never really touched my world as I was growing up. People were people. So I dont understand what Obama's election means to some. I hope and pray that Obama is a good leader. Only God can guide him now

Rebekah said...

and if I didnt say it before- I like your new blog-look

kristen said...

Sorry to hear you're in a funk...I'm just starting to come out of one. It's so frustrating! I was like you yesterday....I avoided any inauguration stuff. I did read his speech last night on the internet and watched a few minutes of recap on FOX news. I was appalled by the benediction given by Rev Lowery (talk about being racist)! I could go on and on but I won't! Hope you feel better soon!!!